Nocturnal Musings

I had a dream last night that was so profound, so genuinely nice, so wonderful, that I woke up three times and tried my best to get back to sleep, just to get some more of it. It was almost as if it was a full length movie or something like that, it was interesting, it was enjoyable, it was intense.

There is one episode of “Everybody Loves Raymond” where Marie says to Ray, “What is the matter? Did you have another one of those Happy Dreams Ray?” and he replies …… “Maw!”

But like I said, this dream was intense. Really hated to see it stop, it is so seldom that I have an enjoyable dream or pleasant encounter in my nocturnal musings. I find myself abruptly sitting up early in the morning, grabbing my writing pad off the headboard of the bed. I quickly wrote down the experience so I could share it with all of you.

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The morning warms up, I slink out to the front porch with a cup of coffee, the southern sun feels good on my face, I am slowly renewed. Isn’t it funny the things the mind will come up with? I am sitting on the porch this morning, listening to the wind softly blow, watching the leaves glide to earth and I remember stopping late at night, on top of the mountain in Flagstaff, Arizona and napping in the car.

I remember that I could not believe that I was sleeping on top of the mountain with the heater running, on .82 cent per gallon gasoline, which at that time, seemed awfully expensive.

Now some 18 years later I am shelling out $3.50 per gallon for the stuff, and it all seems so surreal to me. Another time and another place, an unalloyed testament to modern day living in the age of scarcity.

I close my eyes, sigh a deep sigh, and there it is, a full mental picture of me. Sitting outside of my bus, FULL OF GROCERIES, glass of un-sweetend tea, all happy and healthy.

Honey? Honey? Honey? …. Oh well …

Tell me all your dreams, what you think love means
Lock the world outside, embrace the gift of time.
Promise me forever.

That this moment might be all that I will ever find.